Neighbor

Damn where do I even begin?

You were the first friend I ever made

I was only 3, you were only 5

But the day I met you I could see

You really really didn’t like me

What was it that made you so mad?

Was it how I looked?

Was it my voice?

Were you just born full of hatred?

What did I do?

Because you were my first friend

I didn’t know any better

I thought that was what a friend was

Someone who hurt you

Someone who teased you

Someone who made you question the world

It’s crazy how easily a young mind can be tricked

When your split personality rapidly decided

Today we are friends

Today I hate you

Today I care how you feel

Today I want to Hurt you

Today you are my sister

Today you are my enemy

I never knew which side I would get

Can we play barbies?

Please stop hitting me

Can we go outside?

No! Don’t push me in the street

Can we watch a movie?

That is NOT a centipede

I trusted you

I cared for you

I loved you

I believed in you

I tolerated you making fun of me

Freckled faced freak

Four eyes

Bird-Turd

I tolerated you leaving me out

At your birthday party

My first slumber party

My first night sleeping out in the cold

I tolerated you dressing me up

Clown makeup

A rat nest for hair

An hour of tears in the shower

I tolerated your family

Eat the damn food

Beer cans at my feet

My lungs choking on the smoke

I couldn’t take it anymore

When every friendship I made after you

Ended in failure

Ended in my heart being broken

I couldn’t take it anymore

When you put the shock collar on my neck

The pain was too much

The pain was numbing

I couldn’t take it anymore

When you held the knife to my throat

When you made sure that I knew

I had no choice

I had to obey you

I couldn’t take it anymore

When you tied me to the chair

Left me

Gagged me

It was just a game you said

I didn’t know it was all wrong

It was just a game you said

I didn’t know it would ruin my life

Haunt my memories

Block them

Block them

Please just block the memories

There was no escape

You lived next door

There was no escape

You went to my school

There was no escape

Your friends followed me home

There was no escape

You had a key to my house

There was no escape

No one believed me